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Il faut bien se trouver des raison de célébrer dans la vie, histoire de garder le moral et de se donner des objectifs pour marquer le passage du temps. Et bien je vous annonce qu’il ne me reste plus que 2500 jours avant la retraite !!! J’ai bien hâte de pouvoir me consacrer à temps plein à la lecture et à l’écriture…

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You have to find reason to celebrate in life, just to keep up your spirits and to set goals to mark the passage of time. Well, I tell you that I only have 2500 days left before retirement !!! I can’t wait to devote myself full time to reading and writing …

Status report (early July)

The life in the time of the coronavirus continues… 

This is my fifth status report since the beginning of the coronavirus pandemic (the other four were in March, mid-April, the end of April, and in mid-May). It has now been fifteen weeks (or one-hundred and seven days) since it has all begun. It has been forty days since the beginning of the slow re-opening and my return to work (thirteen days since we’ve restart taking the public in the library for a limited offer of service). 

On the domestic side of life, I can say that I feel I have not been doing much in the last month and half… I didn’t do much around the house (it was either too hot or raining). As usual, I probably watch too much television: like rewatching the Ghost in the Shell: Arise series and several movies (also, to fill the time, I started watching again the 2004 series of Battlestar Galactica). However, I have been reading enough to catch up on my tsundoku… (hurray!) and write a little about my readings (dBD #141, La sphère d’Or, Unbeaten tracks in Japan, I’ll never tell, De Gir à Moebius, and several other French comics that I covered in the article “Sherlock Holmes en bande dessinée (2)”).

Weather — The temperature was unusually warm lately (above average) and often quite dry. So much so that the vegetation in the parc often took a yellowish colour. Thankfully, it rained periodically enough to keep everything alive. In the last week or so it has been quite hot and humid. Enough to discourage any sustained outside activities, although we still take our daily walk.

Health — With the confinement (probably because of slightly bigger meal and less activity) I have gained weight. My blood pressure and glucose are also higher (maybe because of an increased stress?). I have also experienced digestive problems, my usual recurring pain at the end of the digestive track as well as some chest and shoulder pain (probably muscular). Overall, I feel in good shape but it could be better. Unfortunately, I know that with age nothing gets better…

Work — All is fine at work. My usual library being still closed for renovation I was assignment to another one. This new place is at a nice location (at walk/bike distance from home) and has a nice team (although, since the people of my library working there are in extra, we perform mostly boring jobs). However, there was one painful incident: a customer refused the answer the covid “questions” and to sanitize his hands upon entrance. As I was insisting (to follow protocol), he became increasingly disagreeable, up to implying that I was doing so because of my ego or because I was racist. I was just trying to do my job. I was putting my health at risk (and the health of my family) in order to give him access to the library and he has shown absolutely no appreciation or gratitude for it. All I ask is some respect. If I was hurt by being called a racist (and I will come back on this subject) what really pissed me off was that my colleagues didn’t show much support when I tried to explain that he refused to follow protocol and insulted me. I don’t know, maybe they just didn’t understand me well: it is hard to express yourself calmly when it’s hot and your are talking through a mask and a face-shield. What happened to “we must absolutely ask ALL the covid questions and not let anyone in that doesn’t answer properly”? And then they told me “you know, we get insulted all the time. You have to get used to it” implying that I was weak to let it get to me. We are supposed to have a policy of not tolerating any disrespect and bullying (no respect, no service) and, yet in the end, that man received the service he came for. If you are tolerating such disrespect OF COURSE people will feel empowered and continue with the same behaviour. It is the wrong attitude. Anyway, that incident bothered me for weeks as I kept thinking about it…

One thing that I spent a lot of time on lately, was shopping for a nice electric bike or scooter. In this epidemic, I want to avoid public transportation (bus & subway) and if my work place for now is at a walking or biking distance, it is quite tiring in the summer heat (and I am closer to sixty than fifty years-old after all). I rented one for a week and I liked it a lot, but when I wanted to purchase one not a single store in the metropolitan area had any in stock. I guess everybody had the same idea at the same time and I was too late. An electric BIKE looks cool (particularly the Banana Boss, the Rad Runner 1, the Maxie Large, or the Paris) but it is quite expensive and a standard bicycle seat is really hard on my backside. Strangely, a scooter is less expensive, as well as being much more confortable and versatile. I’ve been checking several nice models (Écolo, Tao Aquarius, Vienna, Gio Italia, Mignon, UQi Pro, etc.) but now I found a good store and I am just waiting for them to receive some stock later this month… (Search eBike on the blog)

Many important events happened in the second quarter of 2020 ( the end of May, June and the beginning of July) but I don’t want to spend much time on those current events. However, the world stage was dominated by the three great plagues of the era. First, the coronavirus. So far, the world has suffered over 10 million cases of infection resulting in over half a million deaths! We dealt relatively well with it in Canada, but the U.S. in on the verge of total catastrophe as it reopened too soon and they are now seeing an horrible surge in infection (over fifty-thousand new cases each day!). 

The second plague is Trump. I would think that we would get used to it by now but his mishandling of the coronavirus response (no national coordination, not enough test and PPE, not urging confinement, distanciation, and wearing masks, etc.), his constant lying, and his rhetoric encouraging hate-speech and inciting to violence kept making everything worse. Sometimes, I think he just doing it on purpose. If he is not a Putin agent, he is certainly an agent of chaos. He loves it. I can’t wait until November… 

The final plague is racism. Following the death by police abuse of George Floyd and many other subsequent similar baffling incidents, the American urban areas erupted in spontaneous protests against this pervasive institutional racism that literally plagues the U.S. How did we moved from a pandemic to riots in the streets? (Without much social distancing hence the cases surge) We all hoped that it was getting better but I guess we got negligent — the coronavirus confinement and Trump inducement somehow seem to have put salt on the wound — as it now seems worse than ever. It must be dealt with once and for all. With police reform certainly (defunding, demilitarizing, new structure, call it what you want — I always thought we should have several level of policing: the unarmed street or biking cop, the patrol police answering to theft and hold-up, the inspector, the riot police and now we should have a force of psycho-social worker for domestic violence, teenage trouble, neighbour disputes, etc.), but the disease goes further than that. Social reform and massive investments to reduce inequality (in education, in job opening, in housing, etc.) are necessary. With the recent movements like Me-Too and Black Lifes Matter, I feel that the world is effervescent and on the verge of great changes, just like in ’68. However, we will have to be patient. Real change takes time. But now the seed of change, the idea that it is possible, has been planted in people’s minds. It only remains to take care of it and watch it germinate… But the first step toward that change is for American to go vote in November.

Racism has always bothered me. All my life I tried to treat everybody equally, not letting their opinion, behaviour, the size of their nose, the colour of their eyes, hair or skin (pink, brown, “black”, “red” or “yellow”) distract me from the fact that we were all the same. Human beings. I always tried to be tolerant (sometime failing: for a while I became quite intolerant toward religion, but now the only thing I can’t tolerate is intolerance — and stupidity). When I was a teenager I thought that the best way to solve racism was to intermarry and eventually we would all become of the same skin colour (that’s what I did, unfortunately I never had kids — too much trouble!). However, skin colour is just an excuse for racists: in fact they are just afraid of the difference (people thinking, dressing, talking, etc., differently than they are). There are many culture on this world and, if we just learn about them, we see there is no reason to be afraid. We discover that this difference is beautiful, that it is a wealth. Those people usually are against (or ignorant of) science. Science is telling us that, genetically, we are all the same and that there is only one race: the human race. I always wanted to write about this complex and touchy subject (and someday I will). Unfortunately, whatever you say or write will always receive criticism: you didn’t say this, the way you say that is discriminatory, it is not enough, it is too much, etc., so I am waiting to have the right words. However, if you stay silent,  it is worse because they say that you are complicit, that you are encouraging racism by saying nothing. I prefer to show support by my actions: I won’t protest in the street but I’ll always try to be equitable, unbiased, and just. If I see someone being discriminated (racially or otherwise) I will try to defend them. And I’ll stay silent. If I scold you for doing something wrong (like misbehaving in the library or trying to cut the waiting line to enter the bus) and you answer be accusing me of being racist, I’ll stay silent. But just know that calling me a racist is the worst insult that you could give me…

I feel the end of this year will really be difficult… Take care of yourselves and stay safe !

Also, I found time to stay a little acquainted with the affairs of the world and gathered a few notable news & links — which I now share with you (in both french or english, slightly categorized, but in no particular order — note that, to save on coding time, the links will NOT open in a new window), after the jump.

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J’emmerde Facebook

Sommet-des-dieux-animeLe 20 juin j’ai republié un message d’Animeland qui annonçait la bande-annonce d’un film d’animation adaptant un excellent manga d’un de mes auteurs préférés, Jiro Taniguchi. Le 26 juin j’ai reçu un message de Facebook qui disait “Your post goes against our Community Standards [on SPAM] so only you can see it.” J’ai donc contesté la décision et FB a fermé le dossier mais j’ignore toujours si mon billet original est toujours visible… alors je l’ai re-publié (mais il ne semble toujours pas visible!)…

 La bande-annonce en question (sur Vimeo)

Je suis outragé! Facebook trouve correct que Trump mente sur leur page, que Trump fasse de la désinformation et de la propagande haineuse, que Trump incite à la violence [WaPoNYT] mais je republie simplement un post qui parle d’une animation basé sur un beau manga de mon auteur préféré et c’est du SPAM ???? F**k you FB, je commence sérieusement à penser à te laisser tomber !

Ne vous gênez pas pour commenter et laisser FB savoir quelle petite merde ils sont!

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F**k Facebook !

On June 20 I republished a message from Animeland announcing the trailer for an animated film adapting an excellent manga from one of my favorite authors, Jiro Taniguchi [same news on Anime News Network]. On June 26 I received a message from Facebook saying “Your post goes against our Community Standards [on SPAM] so only you can see it.” So I contested the decision and FB closed the file but I still don’t know if my original post is still visible … So I re-posted it (but I’m still not sure it is visible…) !

I am outraged ! Facebook finds it okay that Trump lies on their page, that Trump does disinformation and propaganda, that Trump uses hate-speech and incites to violence [WaPoNYT] but when I simply republish a post that talks about an animation based on a beautiful manga by my favorite author it is SPAM ???? F ** k you FB, I’m seriously starting to think about dumping you !

Please feel free to comment and tell FB how shitty they are !

 

Two pseudo-Tanka for what’s matter

How did we move from a pandemic
To riots and looting in the streets ?
Is it instigated by the Orange Boogaloo ?

You cannot fight hatred with violence
How can we come back from all this ?

 

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Yes, express your outrage
For the black Floyd’s
Despicable and unnecessary murder

But be careful of the manipulators
Propagating death and deepening chasm

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Happy birthday to moi

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[iPhone 11 Pro, Samsung Q60T, 2002/05/23 ]

This year I gave myself a new TV for my anniversary. With the confinement I was watching more TV so I decided I was deserving an upgrade (my old Sony Bravia 40 in. is still in working condition but it is over ten years old!). I was looking for a recent model of smart 4K TV (UHD HDR LED) 50 or 55 in., with three HDMI input, compatible with Airplay 2 and under $800. The airplay requirement was leaving only four choices: LG (which I don’t like and it would be weird to have a TV of the same brand than my refrigerator), Samsung, Sony (too expensive) and Vizio (not carried by many stores).

I chose the Samsung TU8000 50″ and ordered it from Centre Hi Fi since it was in stock, with reasonable warranty and shipping cost (and they were promising quick delivery). Unfortunately, the salesman called me to tell it was back-order and that it would take several weeks to get it. I was pissed so he offered me instead a Samsung QLED Q60T at a very advantageous price (less than $100 extra). I got it a few days later, just in time for my birthday.

Now I am nearly sixty year-old and quite exhausted, having done a lot of yard and garden work (rising the concrete slabs in the shed to prevent water accumulation and planting an apple tree to replace the white ash that we had to cut down last fall), so I just want to sit down and rest — maybe read a book, write a little about it and watch something on my brand new 4K TV. With all this work I have read and wrote much less than I wanted.

However, the peaceful time I experienced this last two months is coming to an end. I won’t have much time left to do yard work, read or write anymore as I have been recalled to work. I’ll be working outside (for a change!) right in the middle of an heat-wave (one of the earliest the region has ever had)! And then back to the library and all those marvellous books. But I suspect that it will never be the same…

By the way, there are only 2555 days left before my real retirement !

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Status report (mid-May)

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The life in the time of the coronavirus continues… 

This is my fourth status report since the beginning of the coronavirus pandemic (the other three were in March, mid-April and the end of April). We have now been in confinement for eight weeks (or fifty-six days).

I have not read or written much in the last couple of weeks. Maybe because I was getting tired of my routine. Also, since I keep myself busy during the day, I read mostly at night. And for now I am still stuck reading the epistolary travelog of Isabella Bird in Japan which is a little laborious to read (lots of descriptions). As I keep falling asleep, I read barely a dozen pages every night, therefore it is a long enterprise. I want to start reading something else during the day (some manga or comics because it is “May, the comics’ month”) but there’s so much work around the house (gardening, painting, doing laundry, shopping for groceries, etc.) and other distractions (shopping online for a new TV, ordering gardening supplies, watching or reading news) that I never get to it. I also undertook tasks that were rather time consuming: editing a video interview with an author, updating the blog indexes and finally putting together the 2019 “notable news”.

Unfortunately, this joyous preview of retirement is coming to an end and I will soon have much less time to read or write. I have been recalled to work… at the community gardens! I chose to work in a library to stay involved with culture and, obviously, there nothing more cultural than to oversee the operations in one of the borough’s community gardens. Considering that we are in one of the boroughs with the worse coronavirus infection rate, within the worse city and the country’s worse province, I was quite reticent to expose myself to possible contamination by going back to work, particularly for a job that I didn’t choose. However, I didn’t have much choice (apparently they don’t give a damn if I bring the virus home and cause the death of my immunosuppressed sibling). To minimize the risk, I opted to work in the closest community garden, avoiding public transportation. And I’ll be very careful in protecting myself. Working outdoor, at walking distance, cannot be so bad (unless the weather doesn’t cooperate)…

I conclude with a list of posts where you will find links and suggestions to fill your confinement and entertain yourselves:

Take care of yourselves and stay safe !

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De l’écriture (4)

L’écriture c’est la solitude et le vide. Comment puis-je écrire quand tout bouge autour de moi, avec toutes ces boîtes qui parlent sans cesse et jouent de la musique. Je ne peux plus réfléchir ou me concentrer avec toutes ces voix dans ma tête. Et mes mots sont évanescents. Je tente de m’y accrocher mais ils me délaissent. Pour écrire je dois faire le vide mais il y a de plus en plus de monde autour de moi. Étrange en ce temps de confinement. Mais là est le paradoxe, car c’est de tous ces gens, de toutes ces boîtes, ces livres que j’absorbe les émotions, que je suce la vie, aspire le vécu, arrache la connaissance pour nourrir mes mots et combler l’absence et le vide en moi. C’est une balance, un cycle émotionnellement difficile à atteindre et à maintenir…

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Nostalgie pour des souvenirs volés

J’écoute des documentaires à la télé française. Je vois tous ces lieux où j’aurais aimé vivre, tous ces gens que j’aurais aimé connaître. Je ressens un complexe sentiment de frustration, de nostalgie et de jalousie pour ces milliers de vies que j’aurais aimé vivre. Je réalise O combien je ne sais rien. O combien je n’ai pas vécu. Où sont passé toutes ces années ? N’est-il pas trop tard pour tout recommencer ? Et mes yeux se remplissent de larmes…

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Thamnophis sauritus

J’adore me promener dans le Parc Frédéric-Back car tous les jours on y découvre différents aspects de la nature, surtout au printemps. Samedi dernier, j’y ai vu plus d’une dizaines d’espèces d’oiseaux différentes en moins d’une heure. Mardi, j’y ai vu trois marmottes (il semble qu’il y ait un terrier de marmottes à peu près tout les soixante-quinze pieds dans la butte qui longe le sentier polyvalent). Aujourd’hui, j’y ai vu un couple de cardinals. Toutefois, une grande rareté, mercredi j’y ai vu une… couleuvre !

[ iPhone 11 Pro, Parc Frédéric-Back, 2020/04/29 ]

Il s’agit probablement d’une jeune couleuvre mince (Thamnophis sauritus / ribbon snake en anglais) ou possiblement d’une jeune couleuvre rayée (Thamnophis sirtalis / simplement “common garter snake” en anglais). Elle était encore assez petite (une trentaine de centimètres). Je me souviens que dans ma jeunesse on en trouvait beaucoup dans notre cour ou dans les champs mais l’utilisation de pesticides et la disparition de leur habitat les a rendu beaucoup plus rare. La couleuvre (Garter snake en anglais) est une espèce de serpents, un sous-ordre de l’ordre des Squamata, de la classe des reptilia. Elle appartient à la famille des Natricidae et au genre des Thamnophis (qui regroupe une trentaine d’espèces de serpents de plus petites tailles et généralement non-venimeuses). (Source: Wikipedia)

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Status report (End of April)

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The life in the time of the coronavirus continues… This is the third status report since the beginning of the coronavirus pandemic (the other two were in March and mid-April). We’ve now been under confinement for six weeks (forty-two days — a true quarantine) ! 

Despite the apocalyptic feelings we get from the news, the moral is good. However, I am still slightly apprehensive that this heavenly isolation will ends. It starts to feels like an early retirement. But the world has to follow its course and the show must go on. I could be recalled to work anytime within the next two or four weeks. In order to avoid giving the impression that I had been sitting idle through this paid leave, I’ve sent to the libraries’ blog a few reading comments (manga and comics — since “May is the comics month”) that should be posted in the following weeks… (I’ve already contributed more than a dozen comments in 2017-18 and now more are coming).

Evidently, I kept busy. Beside my weekly postings and writing about the latest Notable news and Earth day, I took a break from reading and commented mainly about movies (The trip to Spain, Steve Jobs, Colette, Book Club) and a superb anime TV series (Ghost in the Shell: SAC_2045). I wrote less because there was still a lot to do around the house: plumbing projects to finish, tiles to be replaced, a tree stump to be removed (although I’ve quit on this one), gardening, etc. 

[ iPhone 11 Pro, house work, 2020/04/20, 28-29 ]

Although I still have some gardening and painting to do, I am planning to go back to reading and writing about it. I still have a few novels to read (now I am reading the Japan epistolary travelog of Isabella Bird, Unbeaten Tracks in Japan — it’s so long and made mostly of descriptions) but I will concentrate mainly on manga and comics (I still have plenty of those to read!) because “May is the month of the comics” (Mai, le mois de la BD — for lack of activities in the libraries, the NFB is offering us a selection of films made by cartoonists or drawn from comic books). 

Indeed, May is at our doors! May, the most beautiful month of the year! The warm side of Spring that brings back the colour green, leaves on the trees, bugs & birds and… flowers! And, of course, the latest Star Wars movie (episode IX), The Rise of Skywalker, will start streaming on Disney+ on May the 4th [be with you]…

Stay safe !

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Jour de la Terre

[ iPhone 11 Pro, le printemps dans VSP, 2020/04/20-22]

En ce jour de la Terre il est important d’avoir une bonne pensée pour cette planète qui nous nourrit et nous fait vivre malgré tous les abus que nous lui faisons subir. Cette année-ci est bien spéciale puisque c’est non seulement le cinquantième anniversaire de l’événement mais aussi parce que le confinement et la distanciation sociale que nous expérimentons en raison de la COVID-19 nous fait réaliser qu’il est possible et facile de réduire nos déplacements et notre consommation afin d’alléger le fardeau que l’humain impose à la planète. C’est quelque chose que nous devrions essayer de faire tous les jours de toutes les années. Pour la pérennité de la planète… [ Translate ]

Notable News (Winter – Spring 2020)

As you know, I periodically reflect on the latest notable news , both in my life and in the world, and gather links to the stories I found the most interesting during that time (as a kind of press review). My latest entry on that subject was in January of last year. I’ve skipped the notable news for 2019 (I was a little busy — but I’ll come back to that later) but here they are for the first third of 2020 — I can’t believe we are already in 2020. This will be another decade of disappointment and unfulfilled promises. Where are the cyberspace and the body implants we were promised?!

There is not much to say about what happened on the domestic front. It has been quite busy (and exhausting) at work but I think I dealt pretty well with it. The library was undertaking renovation works to install a sorting “robot” for the returns and completely redo our working area and the counter. Preparing for those renovations and organizing a temporary set-up in order to stay functional and open to the public during the works was quite an ordeal. However, we did well and survived. And then we closed because of the epidemic…

The winter was relatively mild, and spring was early but cold. On the subject of health, I was plagued by a litany of problems: first, with all the hard work at the library, I literally broke my back (getting a serious sciatica), then got a bad flu/cold and finally was deeply pained by a kidney stone (I get one about every ten years). However, I am much better now as the calculus has recently passed. Funnily, despite doing lots of physical work around the house and regularly walking around the parc, I still managed to gain a couple of kilos. You know you have attained a certain age when idle conversations tend to focus more on your ailments than on the weather!

I have also been doing satisfactorily well in my reading and writing. I find it quite extraordinary when, after finishing a book in the previous night, I wake up in the morning with almost the entire reading comment in my head! Doing both reading and writing on a regular basis is a good training for the mind and it seems to get easier and easier with time.

The news on the world stage were dominated by the American election (mostly the democrats’ primaries and the stupid antics of the president — nothing really new there) and the coronavirus (COVID-19) pandemic. At first, like everybody, I wasn’t too concerned. It was just something happening in China. Then, when it became clear that it was spreading easily with cases in Korea, California and Iran, I voiced my concerns to my boss, asking her what was the plan in such circumstances (it was late February or early March). I was told that they weren’t told of any plan. There was not even a sanitizer distributor in the entrance of the workplace — which should have been mandatory. When the government started telling people to stay home and we closed to the public (March 13th), I started really worrying because we were still working and using public transportation. I was afraid to bring the virus home (since one of my family members is immunosuppressed and I am myself at risk because of hypertension). I was just about to tell my boss that I couldn’t continue to work when they decided to send us home (March 19th). 

Not being sure how long this forced vacation (with pay!) would last, I decided to make the best of it and catch up on my reading/writing. Although, after a few days of this coronavirus self-isolation, I realized I hadn’t done much. I wanted initially to read a book or watch a movie each day but I didn’t (maybe it was too ambitious?). I did a few things around the house and wrote a couple of blog entries about the current situation and offered suggestions of stuff to do. But I should be doing more. If not I was afraid to wake up at the end of this “staycation” having done nothing. And there was so much to do. I am happy to say that, so far, I am doing well.

With the pandemic in full swing it is hard to think back about other events that marked the beginning of 2020. In January, beside the usual fires and floods or the conflicts in the Middle-East, we can find noteworthy the American airstrike on the Baghdad Airport to assassinate Qasem Soleimani, Prince Harry and Meghan leave the British Royal family, as more cases are reported the Chinese authorities start investigating this unknown pneumonia outbreak that will become the coronavirus pandemic, and the impeachment trial of Trump moves into the Senate.

In February, we see the first deaths of coronavirus outside China (first in the Philippines, then in Hong Kong, Japan, France, Iran, South Korea, Italy, USA, etc.), the Iowa Democratic Party caucuses are a disaster, Trump is acquitted on both articles of impeachment by the Senate, Harvey Weinstein is found guilty, the Dow Jones starts dropping, and there’s a first possible case of communal transmission of the coronavirus in California.

In March, Pete Buttigieg, Amy Klobuchar and Michael Bloomberg drop their presidential candidacy and endorse Joe Biden, Elizabeth Warren also suspends her campaign (without endorsing Biden yet), the coronavirus outbreak is getting bigger and we see the first death in Canada, following an oil-price war between Russia and Saudi Arabia the Dow Jones drop even further, WHO officially declares the Coronavirus outbreak as a pandemic (3/11) prompting some countries or states to follow China’s example in implementing a lockdown (Italy, Spain, California, Canada, New York, India) and several major events (sport, concert, convention, etc) are getting cancelled. WHO announces that there are at least 20 vaccines candidates in development for COVID-19. Meanwhile, Wuhan (capital of the Hubei province) ends its lockdown and starts reopening.

In April, Bernie Sanders suspends his presidential campaign and endorses Biden, the number of confirmed coronavirus cases passes two million worldwide (4/16) as the pandemic keep growing. The mitigation measures are working and so far the hospitals, if very busy and despite the shortage of PPE, are not overwhelmed as it was first feared. Most countries have put financial measures to help their citizens live through the lockdown and are now planning to slowly ease their containment mesures. The main problem remains the insufficient testing and, in the USA, the absence of Federal coordination. Trump, in his self-absorbed usual incompetence, is definitely not up to the task (I just can’t understand why this guy is still in power). If you would rather burn down the country than admit you’re wrong, you’re not only a bad person, you are also pure evil. Anyway, the month is not over yet, so I’ll keep an eye on the current events, however depressing it might be.

Finally, as usual and through all this, I tried to stay acquainted with the affairs of the world and gathered a few notable news & links — which I now share with you (in both french or english, slightly categorized, but in no particular order — note that, to save on coding time, the links will NOT open in a new window), after the jump.

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Status report (mid-April)

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The life in the time of the coronavirus continues… Not much have changed since my first status report at the end of March (I can’t believe it was just two weeks ago!). Since then I kept busy by reading, watching TV and writing on this blog. I wrote a few book comments (Félin pour l’autre vol. 1, Miss Hokusai 2, The Walking Dead vol. 25, The Walking Dead vol. 26, The empire of corpses vol. 1) and some movie comments (Cézanne et moi, Alpha, The chaperone, Crazy Rich Asians, Monsieur Ibrahim et les fleurs du Coran). I also commented on some anime (The garden of words, The empire of corpses), noted a few noteworthy news (Anime & manga news, 43th Japan Academy Prize), talked about Spring (Expression of hope, Un quartier fleuri, Ménage du printemps?) and shared some poetry.

We have been under confinement for a month now. After a while just reading and writing, or watching a little TV and taking a stroll, gets boring. So I change my routine a little. I wrote less and worked in the garden more (cleaning the backyard, preparing the flower/vegetable beds, chipping piece by piece the stubborn tree stump). I also undertook a new project: changing the toilet bowl and sink in the basement washroom. It’s more complicated than I thought (nothing is standard in this damn old house) but it’s getting there. After that I’ll change the sink in the toilet of the first floor… There are plenty of stuff to do to spend time.

I try to avoid the news. It’s too depressing. I think we are dealing with the crisis well, here. However, the U.S. are a real train wreak. That’s what you get when your leader is a moron. Pity. The recovery will be long but we’ll get there.

Stay safe.

Update (04/17): I was plagued for two months and half by a kidney stone. It was quite painful from time to time and was messing with my whole system. It finally passed. Hurray! 

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Expression of hope

We are into the third week of confinement — actually it’s the nineteenth day. Beside reading and writing, the only activities that we can really do is working around the house, gardening and taking a walk in the park. Since it is the beginning of spring we can witness the marvellous awakening of nature: the neighbour’s crocus show their colours, our daffodils are shooting out of the ground, Canadian geese are bathing in a water puddle, the park is taking a few more colours with the greening of the grass and the apparition of the first flowers, butterflies are coming out and even the groundhog is doing some spring cleaning! The days are getting warmer and warmer…

[ iPhone 11 Pro / Nikon D3300, around Frederic-Back Park, 03/31 – 04/06 ]

During our daily walk in the park this afternoon (I am happy to report that there was not too many people and that everyone kept their distance) we observed at least five different species of birds: a couple of mallard ducks in a little stream, a couple of Canadian geese in a water puddle, five turkey vulture (Urubu in French) circling in the sky, a few crows passing by and one lonely bird with long legs running around busily (most probably a Killdeer — Pluvier kildir in French). It was a beautiful spring day!

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Status report (March)

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The life in the time of the coronavirus continues… I’ve now been in self-isolation for over a week (actually for about ten days) and I am doing well. There are no signs of any symptoms so far and I am in good shape (physically and mentally) — although I still suffers from kidney stones from time to time. I try to stay fit by doing at least an hour of walking (if possible reaching ten thousand steps) and thirty minutes of cardio (by shovelling the backyard or sweeping the driveway) every day — while keeping my distance from people which is really not a problem for me. Unfortunately we had a couple of days of rain and I couldn’t reach my goals during that time. 

I also stay fit mentally by keeping busy with my blog and doing stuff around the house. First, all this reading is a great help in lowering my tsundoku pile. Second, since I am theoretically still working for the library, I try to do some reference work by writing as much reading suggestions and comments as possible. I have everything I need here to keep busy.

The moral is good — despite spending lots of time watching the news, both local and American. I really don’t mind the isolation. Now-a-day — with tons of books & Dvds, the television and the internet to make the mind travel — can we really be isolated anymore? In a way, the only apprehension is about going back to work and ending this very productive streak. However, the way things are going, I don’t think I have to worry about that for a while…

At first I was hoping to read a book and watch a movie every day, but all the walking and doing chores around the house take some time. I have not written as much as I would have liked. So far, I wrote a list of thing to do to keep busy during the isolation, my usual “Natural Friday” entries (about the dodo and the megaladapis), a comment about the second volume of Histoire en manga, a suggestion list for long series of manga in French, and a series of articles about Ghost in the shell Stand Alone Complex (manga, anime TV series, 2nd Gig, Official Log book 1, and movie) as well as the original manga. More (so much more) is in the works.

In the meantime, things are not doing so well around the world. We seem to cope well here in Quebec, but the situation looks dire in Europe and, particularly, in the U.S.. Here are some links to keep yourself informed:

Please, stay put and safe — and keep reading.

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Amour Heuristique (IId)

2.5 AFTERMATH

Pour oublier: le travail dès que possible
Ce sont les nuits qui sont les plus pénibles
Sa présence était comme une drogue dans mon sang
Me désintoxiquer des souvenirs réminescent
La douceur de ses lèvres, sa grande tendresse
Le goût de sa sève, ses promptes caresses
Mais surtout sa sollicitude à l’égard de ma détresse

Mon destin s’est accompli et la vie doit suivre son cours
Je suis éveillé, je ne suis plus aveugle, ni sourd
J’ai besoin d’action, de présences, plus qu’avant
Et maintenant seule l’obscurité me terrifie horriblement

Jamais je n’oublierai…
Nos destins se sont rencontré…
Elle m’a grandi, a illuminé mon obscurité…
Elle est toujours là, j’espère au moins son amitié…
Et avec équilibre, espoir de continuité…

Necesito un guia
Usted es muy hermosa
Usted me gusta muchisimo
Yo te quiero

Mucha gracias por su atension, dispenseme…
Cuendo puedo volver a verle?

1988-12-10

2.6 AFTERTHOUGHT

Mais ce ne sont là que des mots, des évidences
Qui sont, quant tout est fini, bien vide de sens
Quel est le poids des impressions anarchiques
Véhiculés par des clichés pathétiques
Devant ce qui fut si magique ?

1988-12-17
Le rêveur gris
Morwajal

Note: Voici les deux derniers morceaux de ce long poème sur ce qu’un bref idylle m’a appris de la vie. Comme toujours il s’agit de vers éclectiques, sans formes précises, ni métrique. Vous noterez deux brèves strophes en espagnol (nous nous échangions parfois de petits billets dans la langue de Cervantes) [pour la traduction demandez à Mr. Google!]… Voir les parties un (IIa: 2.1-2.2), deux (IIb: 2.3) et trois (IIc: 2.4) de cet ensemble. Le poète du dimanche n’en a pas encore fini puisque j’ai toujours dans mon sac quelques fragments épars.

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Livre-en-sac

Avec l’épidémie de Coronavirus et les mesures de distanciation sociale qui en découlent beaucoup de gens se retrouvent isolés chez eux avec pas grand chose à faire sinon d’écouter la télévision, la radio ou de lire. Avec la fermeture des bibliothèques, des librairies et des cinémas, les gens n’ont plus d’opportunités de se procurer de quoi les occuper. Et peu ont la chance d’avoir une grosse collection de livres et de Dvds à la maison (moi, je n’ai rien à craindre, j’ai de quoi m’occuper pour plus d’une décennie si nécessaire!). 

Bien sûr, il reste toujours l’internet où l’on peut télécharger des livres numériques (ebooks / livrels) ou visionner des films en continu (streaming). J’ai récemment mis en ligne une liste de suggestions de sites et de ressources à cet effet. Toutefois, il y a encore beaucoup de gens qui, pour des raison économique, n’ont pas accès à l’internet ou des personnes âgés qui trouvent tout ça un peu trop compliqué. Alors on retrouve plusieurs initiatives sur FB ou ailleurs pour prêter ou donner des livres à ceux qui en ont besoins. Des initiatives dans le genre du projet de microbibliothèques que la ville avait parti en 2015 (j’ignore si ce projet fonctionne encore mais il existe sûrement des projets similaires). Toutefois, aujourd’hui, j’aimerais vous parler d’un projet en particulier.

Dans la région du Grand Lévis, mon neveu — l’auteur Sébastien Chartrand — a décidé d’y aller de sa modeste contribution et de mettre le tier de sa collection personnelle (quelques deux-mille livres) disponible pour prêter à ceux qui en ont désespérément besoin. Il a démarré un site internet — le Livrensac de Lévis — où il explique son projet et donne la liste des titres disponibles. Les livres sont désinfectés à la lingette Lysol et placés dans un sac ziploc avant d’être livré à la porte ou dans la boîte aux lettres de ceux qui en font la demande! C’est une initiative tellement intéressante que même le journal local, le journal de Lévis, y consacre un article ! 

Il m’écrivait ce matin:

“J’aurais aimé pouvoir montrer à tout le monde le visage radieux des personnes âgées qui m’envoyaient la main par la fenêtre durant ma livraison de samedi, et le garçon qui sautillait sur place quand j’ai déposé ma pile de BD sur le pas de la porte…”

“J’espère vraiment que je vais réussir à rejoindre un maximum de gens isolés. Je demande aux gens de faire connaître. Ça va réduire, peut-être, l’envie de sortir de certains entêtés et donner envie à d’autres personnes d’imiter l’initiative dans d’autres régions…”

Alors, aidez-le et faites passer le mot… N’oubliez pas: https://livreensac.blogspot.com

J’admire grandement sa compassion et son courage. C’est toujours une grande joie de partager notre passion pour les livres (je le ressens souvent en bibliothèques) mais j’ai eut trop de mauvaises expériences à prêter les miens (j’ai perdu trace de plusieurs d’entre eux) que je n’oserais jamais me lancer dans une telle entreprise. Je préfère laisser passer la crise et lire paisiblement en écoutant du smooth jazz à la radio ou blogger sur ma “safe-house” en toute sécurité. Alors, je te lève mon chapeau, neveu !

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Amour Heuristique (IIc)

2.4 THE VOID

Je croyais conserver l’affection intime de ma belle
Mais elle n’était pas prête, c’était trop exiger d’elle
Le rideau tombait sur l’acte final, tout était fini
La réalité est vraiment une planche pourrie

J’ai tant pleuré alors, que me reste-t-il, qu’ai-je fait ?
J’avais tant besoin d’elle, rien n’avais plus de sens
Pendant quelques jours j’ai comme été en transe
Il me fallait me reprendre, tirer un trait

J’ai fait le bilan. De l’amour? Je la connaissais si peu
Comment ai-je pu espérer réduire cet amour, le limiter ?
Le cacher au fonds de mon coeur, l’oublier dans un creux ?
Je me suis déçu moi-même. N’avais-je rien appris à aimer ?

J’aurais voulu pouvoir lui crier ma haine
Pour faire le vide, et oublier ma peine
Mais je l’aimais encore et trop fort
Seule la litanie contre la peur m’offrait un réconfort

1988-12-09
Le rêveur gris
Morwajal

Note: Quatrième partie d’un long poème consacré à une expérience amoureuse. Encore une fois, il s’agit de quatre quatrains hétérométriques qui riment mais pas selon un schéma constant (AABB ABBA ABAB AABB)… On note une référence à Philip K. Dick ainsi qu’à la série de romans Dune de Frank Herbert. Intéressant. Voir les deux premières parties (IIa: 2.1-2.2) et la troisième partie (IIb: 2.3). À suivre…

Blogging at the time of Corona

 

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I am now on indefinite leave
It would feel like staycation
If it was not for this doomsday vibes

The coronavirus (COVID-19) unleashed itself on an unprepared world. Now, we are all in self-confinement to create the social distancing necessary to slow down the onslaught. Therefore the library is closed. We worked for about a week without the public (it was quite fun), but now they have sent us back home (with pay!). I am glad because I was worried that travelling everyday on the bus and the subway would put my family at risk (one of my siblings is immunosuppressed). The governments (both federal, provincial and municipal) asked us to stay home, so we do. I don’t know how long it will last; it might be anything from two weeks to two months. 

I will take advantage of that time to catch up on my reading and movie viewing, do a little clean-up in the house and maybe (if it last for a while) start gardening. I will definitively blog more during this period, mostly to post my reading or viewing comments but also to try to entertain you with bits of knowledge and wisdom. I have already post a list of activities everyone can do during this confinement period.

Hopefully everything will be well. In the meantime, please stay all safe.

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Amour Heuristique (IIb)

2.3 FEW THOUGHTS AT NIGHT

Amour et raison ne s’entendent pas
Les règles du jeu était simple, et nous n’étions pas las
Mais je savais que la douleur viendrait au bout du compte
Je devais agir, tout dire, pour éviter la honte

Je me suis emporté, je n’avais rien connu de tel
J’ai été hors-jeu, j’avais de l’amour pour elle
Tout perdre, son affection, telle était ma peur
Mais la mortelle morsure libérerait mon coeur

J’ai sonné la cruelle retraite
Je devais chercher l’oubli, en pure perte
J’ai fait le bilan, j’avais tant appris
Je devais rester éveiller, conserver l’acquis

J’avais ouvert mon coeur et éviter le pire
Je devais vivre avec et si possible en rire
Secoué aux tréfonds de mon âme pour avoir dit “j’AIME”
Tellement changé que jamais plus je ne serais le même

1988-12-06
Le rêveur gris
Morwajal

Note: Troisième partie de cette série chroniquant une brève mais très intense expérience amoureuse. Quatre quatrains hétérométriques mais qui riment cette fois (tous en AABB). L’ensemble (en six parties — voir partie IIa) écrit en un peu plus deux semaines. Intéressant. À suivre…

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Amour Heuristique (IIa)

(2.1) TSUNAMI SOUL

Une glace épaisse enfermait l’océan de mon coeur
Malgré la brise une tempête ravageait ma torpeur
Des vagues énormes secouaient mon essence
Des tourbillons immenses sapaient mon univers rance
La rage de mon impuissance obnubilait toute connaissance

1988-11-28

(2.2) ENCOUNTER IN DARKNESS

Alors que mon obscurité était ainsi ravagée
Je connu cette expérience inusité
Une petite lumière à la recherche d’une présence
M’appris comment embraser mon essence

En ces quelques petites journées
J’en découvris plus sur l’humanité
Que durant les vingt dernières années
Affection, sollicitude, tout n’était pas vain
Je devins subitement plus humain

1988-12-01
Le rêveur gris
Morwajal

Note: Quand on aime on vit! Une autre série de poèmes en forme libre trouvée profondément dans mes cahiers de notes… d’il y a trente-deux ans! À suivre…

When we love we live! Another series of free form poetry found deep in my notebooks… from thirty-two years ago! To be continued…

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Hidden by Catherine McKenzie

y648While walking home from work one evening, Jeff Manning is struck by a car and killed. Not one but two women fall to pieces at the news: his wife, Claire, and his co-worker Tish. Reeling from her loss, Claire must comfort her grieving son and contend with funeral arrangements, well-meaning family members and the arrival of Jeff’s estranged brother — her ex-boyfriend — Tim.

With Tish’s co-workers in the dark about her connection to Jeff outside the workplace, she volunteers to attend the funeral on the company’s behalf, but only she knows the true risk of inserting herself into the wreckage of Jeff’s life. Told through the three voices of Jeff, Tish and Claire, Hidden explores the complexity of relationships, our personal choices and the responsibilities we have to the ones we love.

[Text from the publisher’s website; see also the back cover]

>> Please, read the warning for possible spoilers <<

My wife is a member of the Montreal’s Sherlock Holmes fan club, called The Bimetallic Question. Every year in January they are holding a formal dinner to celebrate his birthday. They always have a special guest speaker to talk about his/her work and share thoughts about a Sherlockian topic. It is usually a local writer or a Gazette columnist. Last year it was Montreal mystery writer Christopher Huang (I read and commented his book A Gentleman’s murder on this blog). This year on January 18th, being available, I decided to come with my wife to this “Master’s Birthday” dinner to meet this colourful crowd I was hearing so much about but mostly to listen to the guest speaker, writer Catherine McKenzie [ BiblioFBGoodreadsGoogleWeb ]. 

Born and raised in Montreal, she studied law at McGill University and now practices litigation in a boutique law firm. She has published nearly a dozen books: Spin (2009), Arranged (May 2012), Forgotten (October 2012), Hidden (2013), Spun (2014), Smoke (2015), Fractured (2016), The murder game (written in 2007 but only published in 2016 under the pen name Julie Apple — and used as plot device in Fractured), The good liar (2018), and — her latest  I’ll never tell (2019). Her next book (coming in June 2020) will be You Can’t Catch Me. She has also co-written First Street, a serialized audiobook, and published short stories in a couple of anthologies (J.T. Ellison’s A Thousand doors; J. McFetridge & J. Filippi’s Montreal Noir).

A brief sample of McKenzie presentation

I chose to read Hidden by chance, selecting it among the titles available at the library (as I couldn’t get her latest title on time to start reading it before her guest appearance at the dinner). Because McKenzie was invited to speak at the club dinner, I assumed that she was a mystery or crime writer, but Hidden is neither. McKenzie started her career writing Women’s fiction (sometimes called Chick-lit). With Hidden (and later with Fractured and The good liar) she moved into Psychological fiction with a slight touch of a thriller. Although her characters often move in the legal world (law firms and courts), she starts putting elements of crime fiction into her writing only with I’ll never tell and You can’t catch me.

Hidden is very well written. It offers a compelling story about grief and adultery that knows how to keep the interest of the reader. Her characters sound quite true, so when the storytelling builds up with tension you really feel for them. She even manage a little twist at the end. I enjoyed reading this novel but couldn’t avoid being annoyed by the narration at the first person, done by three different characters — including the guy who died at the beginning of the novel! That’s rather unusual. I would have preferred that she put the name of the narrating character in the title of each chapter (I’ve seen this in other books). That way it would not have taken me a few pages into each new chapter before figuring out who the narrator was this time…

I also noticed that she “lied” in her presentation at the club. When asked if she based her characters on herself she said categorically “no”, arguing that when editors say “write about what you know“ it is a misconception that authors write about themselves. In the contrary, my experience in the literary world tells me that writers (consciously or not) always put a part of themselves into some of their characters. McKenzie characters are often working in the legal world so she clearly uses part of “what she knows” (her own experience as a woman, as a mother, as a lawyer) to create the setting of her fictions. In Hidden (p. 303), Jeff accused Tish of having lied about her golf handicap but she answers that she told him about her bad putting when they first met, adding “I have perfect recall of conversations.” McKenzie used this exact sentence, verbatim, during her presentation as she was explaining that she was sometimes using in her books real conversations she had had or had heard. I rest my case.

Hidden was a very good reading. I enjoyed it greatly. It’s nice sometimes to read a simple book about the complex life of everyday people. I’ll certainly try to read more of Catherine McKenzie’s work.

Hidden, by Catherine McKenzie. Toronto: HarperCollins, June 2013. 360 pages, 14 x 21.5 in, $C 19.99. ISBN 978-1-44341-190-5. For young adult (16+). stars-3-5

For more information you can consult the following web sites:

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© 2013 by Catherine McKenzie

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Saya et Caramel sur le divan

Saya et Caramel sur le divan

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Saya et Caramel partagent le même espace, ce qui est rare. Est-ce parce que c’est la Saint-Valentin? Ou Saya donne son support moral à Caramel qui se remet à peine d’un période de léthargie inquiétante et dont la cause nous est inconnue… Néanmoins, après quelques jours à le nourrir à la main et le faire boire à la pipette, il est redevenu peu à peu actif. Aujourd’hui, il va beaucoup mieux. [ Translate ]

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Un parc en hiver (janvier 2020)

Cet après-midi, comme d’habitude, j’ai pris ma marche de santé en passant par le parc Frédéric-Back par un croustillant -16 ℃ (-26 ℃ avec le facteur de refroidissement éolien)! C’était très beau et je dois féliciter le service des Grands Parcs de la Ville de Montréal car le parc a été jusqu’à maintenant assez bien nettoyé et demeure très praticable pour les randonneurs pédestres. Même l’entrée Émile-Journault avait été déblayée (contrairement à l’an dernier). On note qu’une partie du sentier est réservé aux skieurs de fonds et a été traité à cet effet…

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Évidemment, quand il y a du verglas, comme ce 29 décembre (un peu passé 16h), on retrouve le même problème que l’an dernier pour les randonneurs: un épandage d’abrasifs tardif et trop parcimonieux… Il vaut mieux alors éviter le sentier, qui devient une véritable patinoire, et procéder sur la plate-bande de neige ou de gazon. Sinon c’est trop périlleux!

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À ma grande surprise, lors d’une de mes promenades (le 30 décembre, vers 13h), j’ai découvert une chose que je n’avais jamais vue dans le parc: ce qui semble être des traces de lièvres. Cela ne ressemble ni à des traces d’écureuil, ni à des traces de chats… cela ne peut être qu’un lièvre (cf. La Presse+, FCF, Nature-Action, ANF). Je n’aurai jamais cru qu’il y en avait dans le parc Frédéric-Back. Ils doivent avoir leur terriers dans les collines de la périphérie boisée…

D’ailleurs, l’autre jour, un randonneur que je croisais, m’a affirmé avoir aperçu un gros chat dans le parc. J’imagine qu’il s’agissait plutôt d’un gros chat domestique errant car je crois peu probable que cela ait été un chat sauvage, comme le lynx. Surtout en plein jour. On peut facilement y rencontrer des marmottes, des ratons laveurs, des mouffettes, des souris et des rats, même des coyotes. J’en ai vu. Mais des lynx? J’en serais très surpris. Quoi que tout est possible (c’est d’ailleurs un grand prédateur du lièvre)…

IMG_7098J’ai tendance à prendre mes marches de santé en milieu d’après-midi mais, avec le raccourcissement du jour en cette saison, il m’arrive souvent de me retrouver à traverser le sentier de contournement des travaux à la tombée de la nuit, ce qui est plutôt désagréable étant donné l’absence de lampadaires. Il m’est arrivé de traverser cette section du parc dans l’obscurité presque totale! Heureusement, parfois la lune éclaire le chemin — comme dans cette photo prise le 6 janvier, un peu avant 17h. Vivement la fin des travaux (novembre 2020?) et la réouverture du sentier officiel, qui sera alors doté de lampadaires!

IMG_7115J’ai également remarqué que, cette année, les gestionnaires du parc accordaient une plus grande attention à l’entretien des pistes de ski de fonds. Il semble qu’un véhicule spécialisée les prépare et les tamise pour qu’elles soient plus praticable. Évidemment il est préférable que les randonneurs pédestres évitent de circuler sur les pistes de ski pour ne pas les endommager. D’où l’apparition de cette signalisation (“Interdiction de marcher sur les pistes”) que j’ai remarqué la semaine dernière (mais qui avait mystérieusement disparue cette semaine). Toutefois, cette signalisation est un peu confuse (d’où peut être sa disparition?) car elle ne précise pas de quelle piste il s’agit. Ma première réaction lorsque je l’ai aperçu (le 8 janvier, vers 14h) a été de me demander “mais, coup donc, ils veulent qu’on marche où?” Je dois avouer qu’il est impossible de ne pas circuler sur les pistes de ski à l’occasion, car pour accéder à certaines parties du parc dont les pistes ne sont pas déneigées en hiver, l’option la plus praticable (et sécuritaire) reste parfois de circuler sur les sites de ski fonds. Mea culpa.

Par une belle journée ensoleillée (mais froide) comme aujourd’hui, il faut avouer que c’est beau un parc en hiver…

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Viol funèbre

La mort est mon amante de toujours
De longue date je l’ai courtisée
Et jamais elle ne s’est offerte à moi

Elle aussi a refusé mon amour
Mes avances, désirs, professions de foi
Auront donc tous été repoussés

Est-ce la décence ou une peur retorse
Qui m’empêche de la prendre de force ?

Séjanus
Morwajal
1991-08-06
1992-08-13

Note: Pour ceux qui ont de la difficulté à lire entre les lignes, je tiens d’emblée à préciser (avant que tout le “me too” me tombe dessus) que, malgré le titre, ceci est un poème sur le suicide ! Juste pour être clair. J’y ai souvent pensé mais ai toujours résisté. Au bout du compte, pourquoi forcer les choses? Elle viendra bien assez vite…

Toutefois, quand on est jeune, la mort peut avoir une attraction romantique. On se décourage pour un rien et le moindre obstacle ou contre-temps est source de désespoir. On sent que la mort nous appel et quand elle ne vient pas on voudrait “la prendre de force”… Heureusement, cela fini par passer… Cela aide d’en parler ou d’épancher nos émotions sur le papier.

Je me suis d’ailleurs fait la réflexion, un soir sous la douche, que plus je vieillis et moins j’y pense. L’expérience de la vie nous rends plus apte à affronter les défis et les revers de la vie (“les frondes et les flèches de la Fortune outrageante”, comme disait Shakespeare). On acquiert un peu une attitude “je-m’en-foutiste” et on réalise qu’il n’y a vraiment rien de romantique dans la mort. On deviens aussi de plus en plus conscient du peu de temps qu’il nous reste, qu’il suffit de pas grand chose pour que tout finisse subitement et on réalise l’énormité des choses que l’on voudrait encore accomplir avant qu’elle ne vienne. Alors, non, je ne perd plus beaucoup de temps a y penser… Mais cela reste une source d’inspiration.

Comme d’habitude ce poème ne respecte aucune forme: il s’agit de deux tercets et d’un distique, dont les vers sont  hétérométrique (10/10/11 10/12/9 11/10) mais rimés (abc acb dd — sans toutefois n’avoir de genre structuré: M/F/M M/M/M F/F).

C’est néanmoins un poème que j’aime beaucoup.

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Let me out of here!

I’m crying because I’m alone
My heart is cast of stone
If I feel other lights in the Realm
It seems that I can’t reach them

Let me out of here!

Everything is cold and mute
I’m a prisoner in a jail of flesh
I will escape, I’m resolute
I will be the new Gilgamesh

Let me out of here!

I knocking my bloody fist
Against the wall of my humanity
I want to go, cease to exist
Escape from all this insanity

Let me out of here!

As ever nothing is totally free
Sometime the price of freedom
Is another kind of captivity
So who want of this kingdom?

Let me out of here!

No, the universe is not perpetual partying
But a gaping hole where we keep falling
Fear the day when we’ll hit the ground
‘Cause the Styx’ freezin’ water will touch our crowns

Let me out of here!

Yes, I go around alone in society
‘Cause I hate the disembodied presence
Of this awkward and unsightly humanity
Only in suffering there’s less repugnance

Obsecro, libera me!

Séjanus
Morwajal
1991-07-17/10-09
1993-07-13/10-06
2019-12-23

Note: This poem doesn’t respect any traditional form as it is made of six quatrains (stanza of four lines) with loose or poor rhymes (predominantly crossed, ABAB). As usual for me, it is heterometric (the metrical length varying from six to twelve syllables with an average of nine).

It explains the feeling we can find in the expression “please stop the planet ‘cause I want to get off” ! I felt cramped and trapped in this physical form and I wanted to be more (by killing myself?) or I felt dead and I wanted to really live? I felt lonely and disappointed in my fellow humans… 

I was not satisfied with this poem and I reworked it several time, adding a few more stanza. The last two were added in French and it felt awkward to have a bilingual poem, so (luckily) I succeeded to translate them while somehow preserving the rhyming (although it still sounds better in French, see bellow). I also added the last line in latin (please, free me!). [2020/01/08]

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Non, l’univers n’est pas une perpétuelle fête
Mais un trou béant où nous tombons sans cesse
Craignez le jour où nous toucherons le fond
Car alors l’eau glacée du Styx touchera nos têtes

Laissez-moi sortir d’ici!

Oui, Je vais seul de par le monde
Car je hais la compagnie désincarnée
De cette disgracieuse humanité
Et seul, la souffrance est moins immonde

Laissez-moi sortir d’ici!

Voeux

O ! Gracile papillon stellaire
Ne soyez pas éphémère
Je ne désire pas que vous périssiez
Au contraire je veux que vous demeuriez
Que votre perfection, votre beauté, témoigne du passé.

Croyez-moi, il n’était pas dans mon intention de vous blessez
Si je vous retire mon amitié, c’est qu’elle m’était insupportable
Qui sait si dans l’avenir je n’en serais pas à nouveau capable
Il me faut juste guérir un peu, fortifier, oublier, apprendre la solitude
Je ne crains pas pour vous: des amitié vous en avez une multitude

Ne vous privez pas pour moi et ne dérobez pas aux autres votre charme
C’est à moi seul de subir les conséquences de mon drame
C’est si difficile: une partie de moi sanglote de regret à votre souvenirs
L’autre essaie d’être forte: l’espérance aurait rendu la douleur pire
Mais je pense encore souvent à vous; en moi aussi c’est la guerre

Sur ce, belle ange, soyez heureuse et bon anniversaire !

Morwajal
1991-01-22

Note: Charmant petit poème écrit pour une carte d’anniversaire et dédicacé “Pour Z.” Signé encore Séjanus, il ne respecte aucune forme poétique et utilise des rimes simples et pauvres. Il offre un complément (en français, mais toujours aussi embarrassant) à “My heart is not a spark plug”. Cute, mais sans plus.

[ Translate ]

Happy Solstice to all !

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May the turning of the seasons and the renewal of the calendar bring you peace, a long healthy life and prosperity. No matter what you are celebrating at this time of the year (Christmas / Nativity, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, Festivus, Saturnalia / Sol Invictus, etc.) I wish you all merry holidays and happy new year ! 🖖

Joyeux solstice à tous ! Puisse le tournant des saisons et le renouvellement du calendrier vous apporter paix, longévité et prospérité. Peu importe ce que vous célébrez à cette période de l’année (Noël / Nativité, Hanoucca, Kwanzaa, Festivus, Saturnalia / Sol Invictus, etc.), je vous souhaite à tous de joyeuses fêtes ainsi qu’une bonne et heureuse année! 🖖

عطلات سعيدة للجميع
祝大家節日快樂
Feliĉaj Ferioj al ĉiuj
Frohe Feiertage für alle
Ευχάριστες διακοπές σε όλους
Happy Holidays nan tout
חג שמח לכולם
सभी के लिए खुश छुट्टियाँ
Buone Feste a tutti
すべてにハッピーホリデー
Beatus festis in omnes
Счастливые праздники для всех
Felices fiestas a todos
Chúc mừng ngày lễ cho tất cả

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